Christmas In Maine

Sara here, broadcasting from the beautiful all be it, freezing Biddeford, Maine! Remember those changes I was telling you about last entry well one of them is currently where we live! My parents sold my beloved childhood home about 4 months ago, and have been living in this quaint beach house since. So, here I am at the beach for christmas. Its not exactly our own house, but my parents are here, my grandmother is here, and my dogs are here; that's all the house I will ever need. Yesterday we were able to take the dogs on a walk by the house, and it was beautiful and COLD.

Beautiful, isnt it? Being here means I also have free range to my dad's camera so enjoy the pretty pictures! I am hoping to maybe save up some money so that I can buy a nice camera for the blog, permanently. This is us on our trip to the beach, ignore my terrible outfit, isn't the tide high? It was crazy barely any room to walk.

Here is my dad, having a little a doggie time. We have been watching "pillars of the earth" all weekend, its awesomely medieval.

Here are my beautiful puppies, Sampson and Delilah. The first one is them cuddling, keeping warm in the sunshine of the front window. Aren't they absolutely precious (when th

ey are barking their heads off) And look at Sampson he is such a ham, I love it.

Despite, the house that I know my mother isn't completely thrilled with, she has made it a little christmas heaven. My mom is the best decorator I know, and she always goes beyond herself at christmas, and this year is no different. Look at this tree, its gorgeous! My mom won it can you believe it? She won this "victorian tree" and another real wreath at a library fundraiser, lucky dog! So there you have it, my christmas will update later with a cookie recipe and christmas gifts for all!

Big Changes On The Way.

Hope everyone's week is going well, the first week of summer has been nothing but job search, job search, JOB SEARCH!

So far, I believe I have applied to every restaurant, retail store, and craigslist ad in the near vicinity. I had my first job interview today and I think it went really well. The job I applied for is a music therapist for a young boy with autism. The woman I interviewed with today is the boy's mom and such a sweet lady! What interests me the most about this job (besides the fact, that I get to work with a child) is that all the therapy they do with the boy is singing therapy! How perfect is that! The family sounds really sweet and the job sounds incredibly fascinating. I find out about it on Sunday, so cross your fingers!

We also might have possibly found a new apartment, which I am so excited about! For safety reasons, I a

m not going to post the apartment online. But trust that, its awesome; If we get the apartment we want we would move in July 17th!

I am also using this blog entry to introduce you all (and by all I mean the two of you who read this) to someone new/not so new in my life. World meet Tim, yes that's him in that ridiculously old picture. Tim and I met in high school, or 2005 to be exact. Tim basically was my savior and guardian angel in quite possibly the toughest period of my life. Tim pulled me out of my rut and gave me the confidence that someone else had taken from me. Tim and I started as very close friends and over time it evolved into something more. However, Tim graduated and we separated so he could live his life and truly experience college on his own. We kept in touch though, and saw each other during the holidays and whenever we were both in Maine at the same time. Over the next six years, we spoke sporadically and

leaned on each other through tough relationships, heartbreak, and the general stress of college. As most of my friends know I went through a large heartbreak of my own about a year ago and Tim also had a breakup around Christmas. During Christmas, Tim and I had our usual get together and we just sort of kept in contact since then. Since January we have talked basically talked everyday. As Tim and I tend to do our close friendship morphed into more.

A few weeks ago sneaky

Mr. Tim decided to surprise me (with the help of Ms.

Spencer!) and flew to NC to visit me for a week.

He came to my last performance of How I Learned To Drive and stayed through my senior recital. Over his week

in NC, we had a lot of talks about our relationship and we

mutually decided to take a huge step. Over the first week of

June, Tim will be making the move to NC to live with me.

I know I know, Sara you never make spontaneous decisions like this! It's crazy and totally out of character for me, but I am really excited. I really enjoy being around Tim, and he is a great guy who is totally supportive of me and my career;

I really can't say just how important that is to me. Plus, I am pretty sure my friends like him more than they like me, so I can't complain about that! So we'll see, big changes, all for the good I hope!

And so it begins.

I graduated on Sunday.

That sentence is really hard to look at, as I type it on my computer. I don't think I have completely excepted it yet. On Sunday M

ay 9th at 10am, a large chapter of my life came to a close. It was an incredibly bittersweet moment, a large part of me is actually hoping that I will wake up tomorrow and it will all be a dream. Suddenly, I will be back in my freshman year and able to experience these incredible four years again.

It all seems so surreal, I don't feel like I am ready at all to be a college graduate. There are some days when I feel like I am still a kid. I don't feel prepared to be an "adult." It's petrifying to spend 16 years studying, writing pap

ers, learning, and pushing yourself to this light at the end of the tunnel, this point on the horizon. And now that I am at the light, now that I have reached the point on th

e horizon all I see is water, and to be quite honest I have no frickin' idea what to do. I have been trying to apply for a job a day, but not much has turned up. This is quite possibly the scariest point in my life, because really I have no plan and anything is possible.

I guess the only

plan I do have is to stay here in Raleigh for a year, working and saving money and then in a yea

r I will re-evaulate and see where life takes me. However, if I don't find a job in the next coup

le weeks then I can't sign a lease for a new apartment. If I can't sign a lease than I have to move home. Moving home, wouldn't be bad, but it means I leave all my friends and connections I have made here in Raleigh. Which, is a terrible

thing to think about. But, I would be able to be with my family again, so that makes it worth it.

I guess, I just needed to write all this down, and get it out of my head. I am hoping that everything will work out, but who knows.

As you can see, I changed the name of the blog. I am hoping that I can use this blog to vent about life after graduation, and what being an adult really means. Cross your fingers for me...

My new life after I have turned my ring,.